oh, i didn't lose. i have won that screen display thinggy. but the best thing i won? is friendship.

it's not a comfort when my name was announced when i thought it's still not the time for it to be. but with thoughts and images going throught my mind like the 2 hours kinda movies you watch (though this is more like 2 mins), i am pleased to announce that i am coping pretty well, thank you very much.

it's not like i wanna go back there for the THIRD time in like only 4 years. it's not like i really needed that much to spend. it's not like i didn't expect all these. it's not like i really wanted that souvenir thing in my already-so-messy-room. it's not like i am already 30 years old and that was my last chance.

i can do it. this grief i am survivng from. i can do it.